It is 7 days into the new year 2011 and once again i try to keep a journal. An attempt tried over a few years i embark on yet again. This year meets me already on the road of making some more significant decisions in life...notably one that i fear i might regret yet somehow i feel it is working out for a greater good and something in me is proud that at a time when life called for tough choices i made one. I didn't sit on the fence forever or allow the wind that nudges unwilling hearts to kick me down the road like a can; but i veered my life in a direction i believe is good for this moment and is inline with my hopes in life.
I still consider a few choices right now. A phD program, a masters program, a more vigorous job hunt? Ultimately I will want to do a phD, the masters program is a good one too that will give me some stability and ultimately still lead me in the path i have wished for in life. A more rounded PETE Eng. with some softer skills in economics. these skills i hope one day will place me in circles where i could discuss world energy policies as they affect us. The life of a field engineer or practicing engineer with all its promise of a good pay i have always found too shallow and insignificant to the life i dream of. Where wealth comes like a natural consequence of my pursuit to affect human life through ENG and its implication in economics and policy issues.
Going right away for a phD, i will most likely not return to do a masters degree and will be maybe rutted as SK will say, and as i now see into some narrow patch of life...maybe get a job with any of the multinationals/maybe lecture earlier in life than i would have wished. As i write i resolve, as i explore i focus in on reasons that lie atop reasons. I guess my path is clear or becomes clearer as i write on.
I seemed made up already except when i view my choice on the backdrop of bigger things. I would be 33 when i finish up with a masters in Economics and a phD in PETE Engr. I think i will be satisfied with that arrangement and that will be as much Academic skills as i would want. But would i have only been preparing to start living with all that time? without actually living? What if i could secure good internships all along. I would be happy with the blend and its assurance of a job, a jump-start into a career at the end of all that study. To talk with someone will be helpful now. (The bp yoruba guy who gave us a talk the other time)
